Days 70 & 71: I continue to revel in what’s not. I smudged the house and let the wind sweep though the rooms. Things here feel lighter and changed. The house is not suddenly, magically organized and simplified. However, it looks as if I have managed to set up a Spring clean-up for my neighborhood of about 400 homes. Not my kitchen cupboards. Not the office/craft space closet. No. None of that. But I spent hours making it possible for our non-HOA’d, unincorporated village to have Spring clean-up. Someone print me a sign that says, ‘Really? What were you thinking?’
I have not heard about my car’s transmission issues and I am just not worrying about it. I do have a sign that says ‘Worry is a misuse of imagination.’ It reminds me that worrying about the future is about as useful as trying to change the past. It doesn’t get you a step further. As a former champion worrier, I assure you this is true. I enjoy visualizations and this is something that works for me. Did you ever get a song stuck in your head and nothing turns it off. Close your eyes. Visualize the person/band performing the song on a stage. Imagine yourself turning off the spotlight, pulling the plug. Then say ‘The show’s over’ and visualize the dejected performer(s) exiting stage right. It works for me. And I am working on one that has to do with worries that crop up or old memories that don’t do any good. I bid them farewell and tell them to have a nice trip. Then I see them stacked onto the deck of a boat (or walking on board with a suitcase). The boat moves away from the dock and I watch as it sails off into the sunset. Gone. It requires a little faith in yourself and practice but it can work. If not, there’s always sangria and chocolate chip cookies. Exhale.